Poems

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This is mostly stuff I wrote from when I was a young teenager. All angsty and whiney heart broken stuff. You might want to skip over it. haha. Anything else I write will be found in my blog. :)

The link for that can be found on my homepage.

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Now I don't usually write poems, and when I do, they suck. So... if you don't like to read poems that suck... beat it! I'm not putting all of my poems on here either, but I'll probably change them from time to time.

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Untitled I guess...

once upon a time
there were 3 fat girls
all very pretty
with fucked up worlds

bound by the heads
but only by pretend
they all know
that forever they'll be friends

self mutilated
fucked up in the head
freaks of nature
internally dead

stupid memories
from the younger days
when everything was "good"
and we were caught in the haze

3 fucked up fatties
want to end their life
because they have eachother
theres no need for the knife

this has nothing to do with the birthday girl alone
but about how we've all grown
into fucked up little fat chicks
nothing here for you to fix

...this was written by a CLOSE friend of mine.. about me and my sister and her..

this one.. doesn't have a title. i was writing a letter to someone, and tore it up... wrote a poem and email instead :)

this letter contains teardrops
a simple watermark
of my broken heart

my unspoken words
inked to a piece of paper
black or blue..

please don't crimple it up
stomp on it,
or throw it away

keep it nestled in your back pocket
or the bottom of your school bag
never to be looked at, ever again

never let it see the light of day
don't do anything about it
trust me, everything's better off this way..

the altered version, which i like better :)
busy, yo. whoa! the whole crew is online! says:

this letter contains teardrops,

a simple watermark of my broken heart;

my unspoken words inked to a piece of paper

in the colors black and blue .

please don't crumple it up

stomp on it, or throw it away.

keep it nestled in your back pocket

or the bottom of your school bag;

never to be looked upon ever again.

never let it see the light of day,

do not attempt my salvation,

just let it all be.

keep it somewhere safe,

In the bottom of your heart

Only to be left as a memory

niiiiiibs.

My Love

let it glide

feel it sting

go all out

on this stupid thing

kick some ass

make you bleed

because, tonight

it's hurt you'll feed

crimson red

a beautiful sight

oozing out of my arm

on this very night

i'll make you think

i'll make you me

i'll make you cry

i'll make you see

this cut is not

from a broken heart

it's there because

i'm falling apart

as you can see

this work of art...

it's because of me

the king and queen of hearts

were once together, now they're apart

over and over

the sun comes up

the sun goes down

its just another day

in this old town

there's nothing to do

there's no one to see

a routine lifestyle

has taken over me

i go to school

i come home and cry

with nothing better to do

i die inside

i need something better

i need something more

i need someone to help me

...to show me the door

FUCK ...you

i've got those

Stupid Butterflies

i've got a

Burning Lust

this is

Fucking Madness

i'm

Growing Insane

i'm

Losing Trust

i'm boarding the

Crazy Train

i'm not

Quite Sure

i just

Can't Believe

please don't

Be Love

Just Slipped

Only Fell

and i believe, there's a

Way Out

X

and she'll smile sweetly
she'll pretend nothing's wrong
he'll turn his back on her
he'll move right along

but he's all that she thinks of
without him, there's no she
but 'they' never existed
at least.. according to he

she's still insecure
he's still struggling with trust
maybe they weren't..
meant to be an 'us'

they'll both grow up
they'll live seperate lives
he'll always be perfect
at least, in her eyes...

this one doesnt have a name either :)

dont sing me a lullaby
i'll cry me to sleep
don't read me a story
i'll try to count sheep

tell me again
because i forgot...
are we in love,
or are we not?

because you hurt me once
and it was good
then you made it all better
like i knew you would

you confuse me a lot
maybe too much
it's like jumping rope
in the key of "double dutch"

just tell me the truth
don't tell me lies
make no empty promises
cuz i can see them
...in your eyes

Mommy's Little Girl
yeah yeah... "big suck"

you call me rude
you call me mean
but i know how
to read the lines
and what's inbetween

you cannot find the time or words
to tell me how you feel
but knowing that you're angry
makes me so sad and
us not talking seems unreal

once upon a time
i was mommy's little girl
... that i am no more
i guess i'm just growing up
i never thought it'd be this hard

you'll have to let go
and let me move on
i'll see the world and
i'll live on my own
with a hug and a kiss, goodbye mom

BLiND

fuck your ears

for not listening

fuck your tears

for not crying

fuck your eyes

for not seeing

fuck your brain

for not believing

fuck your senses

for not percieving

fuck your charms

for which i fall

fuck your arms

the place where i was held

fuck your mouth

for what was said

.... and most of all

fuck me

for wishing i was dead

sucker

commit this crime
you heinous beast
break my heart
upon which you'll feast

drain me quickly
don't despair
there's no use in pretending
that you care

drain it all
swallow me whole
i'm such a sucker
i guess you've reached your goal

some lovesick puppy
an ignorant fool
a lifeless bitch
...you fucking tool

you heartless bastard
you cruel, cruel thing
you selfish prick
i'm sorry.. those words had no meaning

no no, just wait
i was just kidding, i'm not done yet
i hate your stinking guts
and i wish that we'd never met

perfect

she screams for attention

she screams in pain

she's longing for affection

it's all kind of lame

she'll go to her room

and start to cry

she'll hold her head in her hands

wishing she'd die

she stands by the mirror

and see's her reflection

she see's not perfection

but an angel inside

nobodies perfect she tells herself

yet she chooses to hide

she hides from her friends

she hides from the world

it's just a sad story

that never ends

a little bit of everything

with every waking second
in every single day
i find myself wishing
"there has to be a way.."

in every single teardrop
streaming down my face
i find myself hoping
i will someday leave this place

in every single step i take
around the same old house
i find myself knowing
i'm starting to touse

in every silent scream
that i wish you heard
i find myself trying
..to mutter just one word

in every little cut
over every single bruise
i find myself crying
... all because of you

in every single word
that i try to speak
i find myself hesitating
.. just pausing to freak

in every lie i tell
to cover up the truth
i find myself finding out..
.. i'm just a sad sad youth..

PAtheTic.
kiss me quick
make my knees grow weak
make me stumble...
upon the words i speak

kiss me now
make my heartbeat flutter
make my thoughts slip
just like butter

kiss me deeply
make me numb
make me blind
so i won't feel dumb

slide your arms around me
keep me warm
block everything out
with your special charm

hold me tight
show me "secure"
let me love you
without feeling obscure

put my hand in yours
make my thoughts swirl
please make me yours...
i want to be your girl

YES. I drew those pictures. YES. I wrote those poems. If you don't like them... STOP WASTING YOUR TIME and LEAVE!